2nd Master Cleanse – Days 18 & 21

End-of-Term-Feast_PS_1This was always about the detox, not the weight loss.

This is my 2nd Master Cleanse experience. Eighteen days fasting so far and all going pretty much as expected. I have good days and less good days, but overall it is a similar experience to my first MC: pretty easy with the usual mild detox reactions happening. Hunger is not a problem, although I have definitely felt mildly more hungry than last time. Days eight through to twelve were a little trickier: I was a bit hungry and irritable. Day eleven was a bit funky. I mean wildly angry, ears burning, face red with swear words flying left, right and centre! The anger just rose up out of nowhere. Got into a right little strop I did. Had to leave the house and go for a long calming walk in the freezing cold January drizzle. That calmed me down. Unpleasant really, but all the time I knew it was some horrid toxin leaving me. Better out than in!

I had a great plan to minimise my weight loss during the fast. Adding more maple syrup to the MC drink. Losing weight is the opposite of what I need. It is actually one of the main factors in determining when I stop the fast. I don’t want to lose any weight at all. But this was never about weight loss; this was always about the detox. I start the fast at 66kg. Today I am down at 61.5kg. A drop of 4.5 kg in eighteen days: I am not very happy about that. That plan failed! I am very skinny. But, fuck it, as I just said: this is about the detox and this MC works wonders for me overall. I will regain most or all of the weight after the fast in any case, so I am not worried about that it in the long term. I must say I do not like being so skinny. Reminds me of when I was turbo-sick and my whole world fell apart.

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Yoga Retreat: EcoYoga Centre

ECO-YOGA-CENTRE-SCOTLAND-620x34228th December 2013

Since I have restarted my yoga practice, I thought a yoga retreat would be cool. Never done one of these bad boys before. I need to better my technique. I practice mostly at home, on my own, and direction is required! So I found a yoga retreat that does my type of yoga: Ashtanga Yoga. Up in the Scottish highlands, in Argyll: The EcoYoga Centre http://www.ecoyoga.org/

Took the 930am train from Euston to Glasgow. Four and a half hours is all it takes. Amazing you can get from one end of the country to the other in such speed. First class of course! (cost £2 more than regular class…don’t ask me why).

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Time to detox my Liver: Essiac Tea

Now its time to detox my liver.

In the last six months I have detoxed and cleaned my bowels, my parasites and my candida. It’s been a tough road to travel, but I have been getting better in fits and starts. Next in line is my liver. I have tried four times already this year to do some liver herbs, but each time side-effects and reactions made life completely unbearable, which just meant I needed to do other things first, to ready myself for the liver herbs. Now that I have completed the bowel, parasite and candida cleanses I seem to be ready to tackle the liver again. The castor oil packs seemed to have cleared the way too, unblocked some liver-gallbladder-log-jam. Life is much better. Not perfect, but much better.

At home I have Humaworm liver herbs, liver herbs from www.SHS100.com and some herbs called Essiac Tea. I could not decide which set of herbs to try next, so I muscle tested everything and the result was the Essiac Tea came up the winner. So I started those herbs a couple of weeks ago.

Essiac Tea is an old skool American Indian herbal cure for cancer. (I don’t have cancer.) I have done these before and they are a strong detox. Very good for the liver. Powerful herbs to have the ability to cure the BIG C. Just what I need to turn my BM from light to dark, as they have done in the past.

essiac-reportI have read the original book about their discovery. Very interesting stuff. I always research all the herbs I take. Always.

I get strong reactions if I take too high dosages of most herbs, so as usual I started on a nice low dose to ease my way in: 3 x 20ml per day. After 3 days I upped the dose to 30ml per dose, but quickly had to reduce back down again bcoz life got difficult with side-effects.

I have been on the Essiac tea for 13 days so far. I tried again today to increase the dose upto 25ml per dose, but I tingle all over and it feels like someone is sandpapering underneath my skin. I itch all over my torso and my legs have got dry skin all over them. I need to drink lots of water otherwise I dry out and side-effects increase. Got a teeny tiny bit of heartburn too.

It’s nothing too bad, but it’s not the best fun in the world, so I will reduce down to 20ml per dose again. Life is fine at 20ml and I am not in a position to tough it out: I have a life!!!!!

But it’s not all difficult and horrid news, there is good news too. I am feeling better, nausea is gone, hypoglycaemia is massively reduced and I no longer need a mid-morning snack! Nice! I actually felt so fine I chanced a few beers last week. Nothing serious! Just a couple of bottles of beer. It’s Christmas and I have plenty of business entertaining lunches and dinners to attend.

I have more energy! I have been skipping up the stairs to the station platform, even overtaking people! Yes, that is unusual! I know something is happening when I do odd little things like that. I’m not ready for any yoga yet, but I am starting to think about it.

I have had some lucid dreams too. Happy, funky, exciting, clubbing dreams: always a good signal. My BM’s have darkened a little and there is now no undigested food in there either. That is a clear and strong signal that the herbs are doing their job of detoxing my liver. It means more bile is produced so I can digest more of the lovely grub I eat.

This is just from 13 days worth of herbs. 13 days out of how many? How long will I be on them? Well, the instructions say six months is a good length of time to give the body a decent clean. Six months…ho hum…that’s a long time! I will definitely reduce the dose back down to 20ml. There is no rush in this game. If I feel noticeably better after 13 days, think what I will feel like after 30 days, or 60 days, or 180 days. That’s a happy thought!

But I still gotta get through the side-effects and reactions. The tingly is unpleasant and something I could do without. As I type this, the tingly-$hit has moved to my feet. Yeah, not ready to raise the dose just yet.

Of course, these are all signals of success. Success in cleaning out some old poisons. Toxins hurt when they are inside and they hurt when they come out too. But once they are out…they can never hurt me again. I just have to take them out in small, manageable amounts so that I can continue to have a life. I think having a life is important. That’s the whole purpose of the herbs, so I can enjoy life without thinking of my health.

Overall I am massively better than I was at the beginning of this year when the heart issue crushed me, but I am still in take-care-of-myself-mode. Luckily I have done this all before, so I am travelling a well trodden path.

Anyway, that’s what’s happening at the mo: 13 days in on the Essiac herbs.

Anything else going on? Err, yes actually. I have had four sessions with Roma the Reiki lady. After the second treatment I was feeling worse. I had a long chat with Roma but she said this is normal (sometimes) when healing. The first treatment brings the issue to the surface, the second treatment addresses the problem, and the third treatment resolves the problem. And, that’s exactly what happened. I went ahead with the third treatment and after that things got a lot easier and life returned to a much more even keel. This coincided with starting the Essiac herbs, so my increase in health is also down to the Reiki. I am having a couple more Reiki treatments because they do agree with me. I love to feel the healing energy.

Anything else? Oh yeah, one more thing. I was snacking everyday on lovely fresh ‘n’ healthy olives. I was feeling fine in the mornings, but 2 hours after eating the olives I was jittery and felt like $hit. I muscle tested all my food and I discovered it was the olives. Very odd! Never heard of an olive allergy! Olive oil is fine. Anyway, whatever the reason, olives are now off my menu and I’m feeling much better for not eating them, thanks very much.

Health and healing is a complicated and multiple-action thing. I don’t care how I heal, so I try to do as many different things as possible to help myself. My mercury laden body needs all the help I can give it.

One more odd thing is happening. My wife and kids have all had the vomming virus, and they have all had flu too. And I’m talking proper man flu here. I never seem my wife so sick. She literally could not get out of bed she was so flu-ed up. The kids have both had the vomming and the flu. It’s been lingering for about 4 weeks now. All very annoying for them. The odd thing is: I haven’t had it yet! Odd eh! I must be healthy. Perplexed.

That’s about all for today. Looking forward to Christmas. I have a full house, with both sets of parents staying a couple of nights. I also have two weeks at home on holiday too! Nice!

Merry Christmas all.
Sunshine

My Top 10 Meditations

OK, due to popular demand (thanks emails and comments) we have my favourite ten meditations. This is just a small sample of my collection. There is also a massive variety available on iTunes. Once you start looking you will find hundreds of the buggers! I also have a few podcasts too, but they tend to be shorter and more amateur like. Nothing wrong with short meditations, but I prefer long meditations because I meditate so often: 45 minutes is ideal for me.

Eight out of the ten are guided meditations. That just means someone is talking you through what to think about during the meditation. A little story, a journey, or thinking about different parts of your body.

They are not really in any order because they are all so different, but the first is my favourite.

1) “Guided Mediation” – iTunes
One of the simplest meditations you can get. It just focuses on your breath and gently reminds you every couple of minutes to re-focus back on your breath again if you have wandered off thinking about something else. Six different track lengths of exactly the same concept. Focus deep breath. Simple and effective. It’s a surprise such a simple concept is my most listened to meditation. When I meditate with no guided words or music – this is how I meditate: just focus on the breath, and when the minds wanders off, as it always does, just refocus back to the breath.
https://itunes.apple.com/gb/album/guided-meditation/id575960337

2) “Walking the cobra” by Baird Hersey on  iTunes
Ok, this is not the normal kinda thing you would expect from a meditation, but it’s brilliant. Not totally sure how to describe it without putting you off, but: song, tones, vibrations, melodic. Officially it’s called an “Overtone Singing Chakra Meditation”. The only instrument on this recording is the guy’s voice and there is no talking. I never heard anything like this before. It’s funky, but absolutely lovely.
https://itunes.apple.com/gb/album/waking-cobra-vocal-meditations/id82481933 

3) iRelax – Yoga Nidra, OrangeOrb – iTunes
This is a ‘full tour of the body’ mediation. 45 minutes where you visit each part of your body, notice it and relax it. That might sound odd, but it’s ultra relaxing. Nice tinkly music in the background too.
https://itunes.apple.com/gb/album/irelax-yoga-nidra-guided-meditation/id464175510

4) A guided meditation for self healing – Crimson lane experiences. – iTunes
Really cool focused balls of white light that energises your body. Nice!
https://itunes.apple.com/gb/album/guided-meditation-for-self/id408626079

5) David Coulson
Anything by this guy is pretty cool. These are just two of his tracks. They are always potent and strong.
Emerald heart – Funky angel mediation.
Archangel Chakra meditation – Strong and powerful chakra balance.
http://www.learnoutloud.com/Audio-Books/Self-Development/Healing/The-Golden-Light-Meditation/29287

6) Kala Ambrose – iTunes
Long funky adventure meditations leading you all around the world of your mind. Three different albums:Hawaii,Egypt and my favourite Tibet where you are guided into some ice caves!
https://itunes.apple.com/gb/album/guided-meditation-spirit-hawaii/id528931803
https://itunes.apple.com/gb/album/guided-meditation-egyptian/id528947786
https://itunes.apple.com/gb/album/guided-meditation-tibetan/id528932017

7) The Space Between Galaxies – Aardvark music – iTunes
Funky guided space travel!!!
https://itunes.apple.com/gb/album/a-guided-meditation/id216970318

8) Osho Reminding Yourself of Forgotten language of talking to your mind and body. Osho. – iTunes
Ok, this guy was a major meditation healer dude back in the ’60’s ‘70’s and 80’s. Major cult following. I read a book about this amazing guy. Very famous chap. Had lots of Rolls Royce’s and full to the brim of energy. Anyway, cool meditation with focused healing on body location of your choice.
https://itunes.apple.com/gb/album/osho-reminding-yourself-forgotten/id384744773

9) Chakra healing: Aime R. Shea – iTunes
Does exactly what it says on the tin: Chakra meditation. Visualise the colours of each different chakra. Also has a very nice count down mediation too. That counts you down to a state of deep relaxation. Nice.
https://itunes.apple.com/gb/album/chakra-healing-guided-meditation/id292906729

10) Angel Paradise – Berglunt
Ok, this is the uber-funky-beyond-the-thunderdome meditation: Hemi-sync. This is the stuff that vibrates your brain and takes you to La-La land. Very healing and very funky and very powerful. Not for the faint hearted. Do not start here if you are a meditation virgin! Or maybe you should??? Hahaha….This is the business end of wildness. My sinuses healed with this! One time my 11 year old daughter crept into my room and did the meditation with me. She ‘dreamt’ a whole massive Harry Potter, Hogwarts adventure dream. Very vivid! She loved it.
Dive in and have fun! Where will you go tonight?
http://www.erikberglund.com/catalog/aparadise.html

That’ll do. That’s more than enough to choose from, and as I said there are loads more on iTunes once you start looking.

Oh yeah, this is a two-way thing! If you have or find any great meditations…I expect you to tell me about them!! 😉

Enjoy!
Sunshine

Why do I meditate?

Ok boys and girls, we are gonna go deep tonight. Meditation. Why do I meditate? I meditate most days, probably six times a week. I awake each morning at 519am, my alarm goes off at 520am, I get up, brush my teeth, drink a pint of water, get my breakfast lined up for later, take any early morning supplements and then settle down in my room for 45-60 minutes mediation. I have a little heater to warm me up. I have a blanket to keep me warm too.

But why? Why bother? Why not take the extra hour as sleep? Surely my body could use an extra hours sleep? I normally only get seven hours, surely eight would make me feel GREAT? What’s so bloody good about sitting around doing nothing?

I ask myself these questions because I find it odd. I work long, busy, stressful days in the city and it’s unusual. I don’t know anyone else that even meditates once a month. But then again I don’t really talk about this kinda thing to Muggles. Certainly my work colleagues would think it extremely freaky if I admitted to daily meditation.

I have tried to give it up. I reset my alarm to 630am and tried to force myself to lie in. But it was pointless. Each morning I still awoke at 519am and lay tossing and turning until I just had to get up. Odd eh!  So anyway, here are the reasons I meditate almost every day:

1) Firstly because I love it! Oh yes baby, I absolutely love meditating. And I miss it when I don‘t do it. It’s not a bubbly, lively, bouncy love. No, it’s a contented, relaxed, satisfied and tranquil love. Like the love of an old dear friend. I have been meditating, on and off, for 9 years now and it’s a wonderful way to start the day.

2) The variations are massive. Absolutely huge. I do not get bored with the day after day repetition because I mix it up with a wide variety of different cool and funky things. I have 50 different meditation albums in my itunes; all the different types you can do. Each album has between one and 10 different mediations to listen too. That’s about 125 separate meditations I have built up over the years. 125 different mediations to mix up and spice up my inner-world. Some hour long rides. Some 10 minutes peace and quiet. Some so simple they just focus on the breath. Some long intricate fun guided journeys through funky places. Some just music. Some just vibrations. Some just chanting Omm. Lots of different types of chakra meditations too. Even some with special music that vibrates your brain! And we must also mention the reiki. Guided reiki meditations…a joy to behold! What a way to start the way! Funky!

3) It is written, by the meditating guru’s of our world, that a daily meditation is all that is needed for a full, happy, healthy and contented life. They say that physical exercise is not necessary if you meditate daily. Wild eh! I have not found that true, yet. But it might be true if I continue! LOL, anyway it’s easy to continue when I enjoy it so much.

4) I was sick in ignorance for a long time. I didn’t know it was mercury that was kicking my arse. Towards the end of that ignorant period I had three hopeless and painful years practicing something called The Alexander Technique. I will not bore you with the details now, but there is an element of meditation to it. I spent an hour practicing each day. It lessened some of the aches and pains in my body. It didn’t cure my body, but it cured my mind. I was depressed back then. Depressed with my painful life. The Alexander Technique made the depression go away. Each day I spent an hour with just myself. I focused on not thinking about anything. Each time my mind wandered, as is normal, I brought it back to my here and now. It wasn’t overnight, and my body still hurt everywhere, but my mind became clear. I saw things clearly. I didn’t understand my health, but I understood something was deeply wrong and that I needed to pull my finger out if I was to get better. Once I started looking, I picked things up pretty quick. Today I see clearly the problems in front of me. I clearly see the paths that I can take. I have a broad view of things too. A wide-angle view of my path. Some may be long paths, but nevertheless, I see clearly. I put that clarity down to all the mediation I have done. If you read my book and wondered how I ‘got everything’…it’s because of the mediation.

5) If you take a moment to stop and think of nothing, nothing at all, it is pretty hard. Go on, try it now. Take 2 minutes out now. Just stop reading this. Close your eyes. Clear your mind. Think of nothing. Just follow your breath for two minuscule minutes out of your day.

Bet you five bucks your mind swings quickly on to something happening in your life. Big or small the thoughts always creep back. Don’t worry, it is 100 percent normal, everyone is the same.

When you meditate, you stop those normal everyday thoughts from filling up your mind. Whenever you notice your thoughts wandering away, you stop and bring yourself back to the here and now. Usually just focus on your breath, or if following a guided meditation, just following that gentle path.

Why?

Well, your mind is constantly full of thoughts. We are perpetually thinking about stuff. Our minds never stop racing through all the different scenarios in our life, thinking up witty comments we could have said, thinking about what’s for dinner, what did your boss mean when he said “goodnight” in that tone of voice? Bam bam bam. Our minds are full of action. And sometimes it needs a break. Sometimes it is good to stop that constant inner chatter. Yes, you are not mental if you talk in your head. Everyone does it. Everyone without exception!

When you meditate, you wipe the slate clean. You stop the mind thinking and it creates space. It like wiping a blackboard clean. Clean and fresh, tranquil and calm. Ready to be refilled with new things, maybe?

What I have found is that when I finish a meditation, when I restart the inner chatter, things are clearer, less cluttered. It’s not an overnight thing. It’s something that is only observable in hindsight. You look back and you understand. Things make sense. Once tricky things, suddenly look simple. I guess this is one the main reasons why I meditate: the clarity that it brings.

6) Another reason I meditate is because I cannot practice yoga. I love yoga. Love the heat, love the energy, love the freedom, love the repetition, love the suppleness and the strength it brings. But being mercury toxic makes things difficult. It’s not a question of popping down the gym to ‘get fit’. Exercise is a calculated risk. Will I get injured? Will something snap, or tear, or pop out. Do I have enough energy? Will I be wiped out afterwards? And the number one reason I cannot practice yoga at the moment is because of my nose. Every morning I awake to a blocked nose. By the afternoon it’s clear, but I only have time and energy in the mornings. I have found decent yoga almost totally impossible with a blocked nose. I must be able to breath properly through my nose in order to practice correctly. It is super-frustrating and I am very prone to injury otherwise. The breathing generates the heat and energy my body needs when practicing properly. So, yeah, I’m off-games and so it’s meditation or nothing. Did you know: the yoga postures and mediation are two sides of the same coin! Fact.

7) When I am feeling poorly, meditation helps me see clearly, calms me down and allows my body to fully relax. When I am feeling good, mediation makes me feel even better. Energy surges into my body and makes me feel great. Ok, here I seem to be veering into slightly dodgy waters. Energy? That’s probably freakin’ you out! What? And so it should, it is freaky! So, I think that’s all I will say for now, but yeah some types of mediation makes me feel better, full of energy.

Anyway – just my thoughts on meditation and why I do it. I work long hard hours in my job. I have to deal with some very difficult people. It is stressful. I have worked in the city since I was 19 years old, that’s 24 years of my life so far. Seven years ago I decided to reward myself with one hour a day to myself. Total peace and quiet. Just me, myself and I. No one else is allowed. I can do anything I wish.

Anything! Cool eh! Obviously the only time that’s possible, I have two kids don’t forget, is in the mornings before work. My hour is dedicated to my health. Yoga or mediation or reiki or special breathing techniques. Up to me, whatever I feel like doing. Since I’m off-games it’s been the mediation that I have focused on these least 1.5 years. Time flies when you are having fun.

Sunshine

Side note: I didn’t do any research when I wrote this. It just came from the heart, just came from my own experiences. I purposely didn’t want to be distracted or influenced by anyone else. But after I’d finished I thought I should probably have a look, just in case! And a quick internet search revealed the following benefits of mediation: Enhances concentration, lowers blood pressure, improves sleep, manages pain, live longer, connect better with others, less bothered by little things, better health, better knowledge of self, people enjoy your company, achieve several hours sleep in 20 minutes meditation (I didn’t know that), productivity sky-rockets, reduces stress, increases exercise tolerance, deeper relaxation, reduces muscle tension, enhances immune system, feel fantastic and apparently purifies your character, whatever that means!

I found a list of 100 benefits here: http://www.ineedmotivation.com/blog/2008/05/100-benefits-of-meditation/

Is anyone interested in my top 10 meditations?

Take care
Danny

 

Reiki

So, what’s next you ask? What will I do next to help myself?

Will it be a bowel cleanse? Or maybe a parasite cleanse? Or liver herbs to go with the castor oil packs? Or kidney cleanse? Or lungs? Or pro-biotics? Or chelation? Or a break? Or Reiki? Or a combination?

Well, I have been doing various different herbal combinations all year so it’s time for a break. Just a week or two. Time to give my body a rest from detoxing and give it a little bit of love instead.

Reiki
I went to see Roma the Reiki Lady down the road. She told me she has been really sick. She had a brain haemorrhage earlier in the year. Nasty. But better now and giving out Reiki again.

Always makes me wonder that. Healing people getting sick. Doesn’t seem right. Surely the people who help us should be healthy? Just like Andreas Moritz dying at the incredibly young age of 58. I mean, how can he die? What did he die of? I learnt so much from him. His books stunning. His knowledge of how our bodies work amazing. Just amazing. He was a wizard (ha!) at explaining things! And he died aged 58? What does that say about his healing skills? No idea, but it’s not a good advertisement for alternative health.

But then again, what do I know? I don’t know anything at all about his situation. Maybe he should have died aged 12 and had all this extra life? Who knows? But, I do think it odd when healers get sick. Anyone know how Andreas Moritz died?

Anyway, I’m getting sidetracked. Roma the reiki lady. I have myself done the Reiki I and Reiki II training a couple of years ago, but I have been off-games with the Reiki this year. It didn’t agree with my heart problems. Just didn’t feel right. Made my heart race out of control: horrid. Felt like driving too fast on a cliff edge road. Scary. I know it was my heart, not the reiki that was broken, so that’s why I just stopped it. It just didn’t agree.

But my heart is fine now, so time to rekindle the reiki. But rather than self practice, I thought I get a professional to do it, to make sure I get back on the wagon correctly.

I lay down, covered in a blanket. Close eyes. Follow my breathing down to a relaxed level. Roma hovers her hands a few inches above my head. I immediately feel the energy on my skull. Oh yeah, I physically feel the energy when I experience it. Feels like a pressure on my head. The more energy, the more pressure, but this is gentle.

I try hard to stay awake as long as possible. I follow my breathing. I experience the energy. I look in to the blackness of my closed eye vision to see if I can see any colours? But nope, no colours showing yet. I usually only get the colours showing when the energy is strong.

My eyes are closed, but I know the reiki treatment will be all over my body, so I try to guess over where her hands are hovering? But feels like my head is getting most of the treatment. The pressure is fairly constant around my head. Eventually a few colours start swirling in font of my eyes, but I am losing the battle to stay awake.

“Danny. Danny. Danny. It’s finished.”

“Oh, was I asleep?”

“Oh yes”

“Ummm. Nice.”

“Take you time, get up slow.”

I awake relaxed, calm and warm.

“I felt the energy mostly on my head for the whole time.”

“For me it was the other way around. I could not feel your head at all, but I did everywhere else. Especially your throat and stomach. I did a normal full body healing.”

“Odd, I only felt it on my head. Felt like the energy was blocked. It did not flow around my body like it usually does. No idea what it means. Do you?”

“Nope. Every session is unique.”

I always enjoy the reiki. Always fun. No real fireworks this time, but that’s ok. It’s good to do. Good to give my body some love after all the detoxing I do.

I am booked in for two reiki sessions in the coming weeks.

That’s all folks!
Sunshine

TB, Humaworm, Candida, Castor oil packs…but still no chelation.

Ok. Transformational Breathing (TB). What’s been happening? I had been doing the ten minutes practice each day before my morning meditation, but I got bored with it. So I moved on, and moved up;-) I skipped the meditation and just did 45 minutes TB. Ha! Now that’s more like it! Loads of funky vibrations when I do it for 45 minutes. That’s way more fun! Really oxygenates my body, and yeah, my body really likes that.

Last Friday I had a one-2-one session with The Transformational Breather Dude. What a nice man he is. Alan Dolan. Full of energy he is. And I mean energy, as in tingly, buzzy, spiritual and exciting energy. One of them people you instantly warm too. So relaxed. Calm.

I wonder what he sees when he sees me? Some stressed-out, middle-aged city chap no doubt. And that’s what I am. Stressed with my ill-health. It has been a major drag this year. I’m on the mend, but it takes time. Each set of herbs hurts. Each set of herbs takes its allotted time. Each set of herbs cannot be rushed. Bowel, parasite, candida, liver, kidney, lung. I have no doubt that if I could fast forward 6-8 months from now that I’d find myself looking back smugly and basking in my good health. I hope so anyway. Bowels done. Parasites done. Candida done and doing again. Diet doing. Liver and gallbladder and kidneys to do. And they are gonna hurt.

Anyway, I’m getting side tracked, the TBreathing. 730pm Friday night after work. No time to go home beforehand, so I have dinner at my local Italian, Fabrizzio’s. And as usual I cut it too fine, get stuck in traffic and arrived 10 minutes late. Typical me.

We meet at a new yoga place I’ve never heard of called Indaba, just behind Marylebone Station off Euston road. Lovely place. Posh. Brand new. And all warm and homely. Smelled nice. Smelled of happy people. Wish I had a place like this close to my house or office. Wish I was well enough to yoga.

Alan lies me down and explains I will just be breathing the special breath. Innnnnnn-breath and a quick dropped out-breath. No pauses. Each in and out-breath connected. Repeat. Repeat for about one hour. Simple. He will guide me, direct me to breathe correctly and use the breath to free up and open the parts of my body that are stuck. That’s the plan anyway.

I’m used to the breathing technique so I slip into the rhythm within seconds. Alan prods me with his thumbs all around my body. Sometimes it hurts, sometimes I shout out in surprise, sometimes it tickles and makes me laugh out loud. It is quite intense and occasionally my breath kicks in to overdrive and Alan has to remind me to calm the breath down. Less is more. Not good to hyperventilate. Throughout the hour Alan moves me about. Sometimes I’m sitting up, sometimes on my front with him prodding all over my back.

The intensity grows throughout the session and in the last five minutes the energy powers into overdrive in my hands. I love it when that happens. To feel the energy flowing like a wild-thing is wonderful, just a wonderful experience. My hands felt so heavy and full with power and buzzing with energy. I put them over my gallbladder to give them some healing energy.

Pity it only kicked in right at the end and I only had five minutes like that. Alan called me up and gave me a review: I’m good at breathing, good at getting the flow going, but I get over-keen, over-excited and breathe too quick. I need to hold the breath in check.

He said I need to calm down.

Relax.

Find time to be on my own, to be myself.

And these were not breathing techniques…these were life lessons.

Deep.

That’s why I meditate daily. It is a calm start to my perpetually busy days in the office.

Excuses, excuses…but the herbs must take their own good time. It’s not a question of ‘chilling out’. It’s a question of doing the herbs to detox my whole body. But I must finish these candida herbs first. Today is day 16. I have not got over half dosage yet.

Overall TB was another cool ‘n’ funky experience. A little expensive. 100 quid. Not cheap. Felt rough the next morning too as had some detoxing going on. Lots of water helped. But overall a fun incident along my journey. Something different. Nice to change things around a bit. Breaks the morning meditation routine up nicely. Would I do it again? Another 100 quid? Ummm…probably yes, but not next week. It is an interesting thing to do. Some people have gotten super better from doing it. I read the book by the discoverer. “The joys of Transformational Breathing” By Judith Kravitz. I always research everything I do. Interesting stuff. I find it amazing that such a simple change in focus in breathing can bring on such strong reactions.

I admit I am stressed at the moment. My health stresses me. It’s been an annus horribilis. And I’m in the middle of the Humaworm Candida herbs and they make life difficult. I only turned the corner in August. So that’s August, September, October, 13th November. Three and a half months since the BIG turnaround. And after the two steps forward, I have had a one step back. Ho hum.

Overall I am moving in the right direction, it is a little frustrating that each set of herbs takes so long. I am impatient to start the liver herbs now. The muscle tester Dude said my gallbladder is my biggest problem at the moment. So for that I need liver herbs, but I must first finish these candida herbs.

Because of my impatience I am doing castor oil packs over my gallbladder. Three days in a row, about an hour each, then after the third on the third day, I drink a good lug of olive oil and go to bed. It’s worked in the past. Very effective at cleaning the liver and gallbladder. A very civilised way to detox. Tonight is the third night.

Oh yeah, I have been doing these special diets for 6 weeks. No sugar and no carbs except brown rice. I have not really noticed anything too different, except I have lost 3kg’s, down to 69kg and that’s enough. I don’t like losing too much weight. I will gradually reintroduce some foods now. Lentils, potatoes and maybe some fruit to see what happens. I think I will keep wheat off my menu for a while longer.

That’s all folks!